Kindred Spirits

"A kindred spirit is much more than just a friend. A kindred spirit, is someone who understands unconditionally, without even trying. Someone who becomes a part of your life without even trying, whether you like it or not, because somehow or the other, she just knows what you're thinking. That someone will not only tolerate your incessant ramblings but will manage to acquire the underlying sense behind it. That someone gives you far more than love or friendship - that someone 'gets' you, which is much harder to find than love/friendship."

*disclaimer* I don't want to offend anyone!! I realized tonight that I am missing something in my life. I don't have that kindred spirit or that bosom friend. Yeah, sure, I have a fiance and I'm not putting that down... but I am missing that girl friend that connects with me on a level that my guy can't. I don't want this to sound whiny... but it just hit me tonight that it's what I've been missing. Sure I have lots of surface friends, or friends who I do certain things with, but I don't have that one that really gets every part of me... that one who I can be my true self with. I feel like I have to put up this fake front with everyone else. People have this expectation or idea of what I should be... and I try to live up to it. The result of this has been that I don't feel connected to anyone.

This post feels so drab and lame... but it's what is on my heart.