You don't define me.

I've heard it said that girls need to stop finding their worth in guys. I, on my ever humble soapbox, thought "I'll NEVER be that kind of girl." Well, here I am realizing that I do it ALL the time. It's why when there's a thunderstorm that no amount of comfort from my girl friends will do it - one word from a guy will. When I'm lonely, no matter how many girl friends that are in my room, the only thing that will make it better is hanging out with or talking to a guy. I'm sick and tired of it. Yes... guys are awesome. Why else would I always want to hang out with them? But guys CAN'T be the ones who define me anymore. Preventing this will require some tough steps from me... I have to remember this every time I get that feeling of loneliness or fear. God is the only One who can take away those feelings, fill the void, and make me whole. Even if I get married, something might happen to the man I marry. I have to be whole without him, otherwise without him I'll be nothing. That's not the kind of relationship God has in mind for me. God wants me to love him FIRST, and then He'll bless me with a special man to spend the rest of my life on earth with.

In Isaiah 62:4 it says: It will no longer be said to you, "Forsaken," Nor to your land will it any longer be said, "Desolate"; But you will be called, "My delight is in her," And your land, "Married"; For the LORD delights in you, And to Him your land will be married." God had delivered the people of Zion from their sinful, wicked place in life. He rescued them and desired to change them! God no longer saw them as broken, alone, or without hope, but He saw them in His light. He saw them as beautiful creatures that He created! He wanted to change their name to Hephzibah (My delight is in her) because He loved them.

God feels the same way about me! He didn't create me to be fulfilled by a man. He created me to help a man with the thing God had chosen for him to do.

I no longer want my name to be Forsaken and Desolate, but Hephzibah because God delights in me. He defines me.

Mirror I am seeing a new reflection

I'm looking into the eyes

of He who made me

And to Him I have beauty beyond compare

I know He defines me.
Who are you to tell me that I'm

less than what I should be?

Who are you?
I don't need to listen to the

list of things I should do. I won't try.
No, I won't try.

Barlow Girl ~ Mirror

Don't wait for life to be just right...

I've been listening to a radio drama called Down Gilead Lane. In the season 12, the last season, they cover some deep issues: falling in love, relationship with family and God, sharing the gospel with others, and making the most of every moment.

How often do we worry about things like money, government, and family? When we let our minds get caught up in the stress of life, we forget to have fun and enjoy the time God has put us in right now. We can't get so distracted that we forget to appreciate the people that God has placed in our lives. We need to take the time to appreciate them, spend time with them, and show them that they care. We don't know how long we have on this earth and making the most of the time that God has given us is the most important thing we can do. We need to live without fear, being unashamed of the gospel. I struggle with this all the time! It is so hard to step outside the box and tell someone about Jesus. I don't even know how to start... but God put us on this earth to glorify Him. People can't come to Him unless they hear about Him first, and how will they hear if no one tells them? (that's in the Bible ;) )

That's my goal for my life. I love God and want to serve Him with my life. I'm going to try to not get caught up in the stresses of life and to just enjoy the life that God has given me, serving Him with my life.